My Thoughts On My Life

So this is what I think about when I focus on my life and where its going to take me... My first thought is how far I have come in such a short time. Just think of all you have accompished in your life so far and all the things you regret doing in the first place but thought it would be cool to do, like lie or have a relationship with someone you know is not right for you. I can't say I've never made mistakes, there has been SO MANY that I can't even COUNT or RECALL them all, but I know I made mistakes, big and small. The second thought is how far am I willing to go for the things that I want to pursue, am I willing to leave my family so far behind, to just detach them for my life for a year as I go off to bible college in Ireland. Do I want to be what I think I want to be, am I ready for this step, and I have such a short time to make my decsion (one year basically). Will it all be worthwhile or just a waste of time that I could have used for something better. Thirdly, what does my heart truly desire in life. Some conclusions about this that have sprung to mind are; a lover, children of my own, a relationship with God that is so powerful nothing can shake it, and a relationship with my family that is deep and binding. There are other thoughts that race through my mind at lightening speed, like, Is my heart truly set on God? Do I listen to my heart and not my mind? and How can I learn to listen with my heart and soul when I have used the mind over heart theory for so long? Life is an adventure, you take one step and you can't go back only forward to an uncertain future, to places you never knew you could go... Taking the step to accept God and to trust and believe in Him, is one huge step and its journey takes you on many different roads with twist and turns (sorrow, happiness, pain, restoration, eternal life, heaven, betrayal, laughter, anguish, joy, rejection, acception). But everything seems to be balanced between the good things and the bad things, even though we tend to focus on the negative things more often than the positive things, which are way more important and bring us joy and happiness. Like take a minute to think, and really think, about all the awesome things that have happened all your life, then think of all the pain and anguish. Which is better to focus on? What do you like more, the pain? Or the happiness and joy? I would rather focus on the good things, but Satan wants to prevent that by causing us to think of our pain instead. Well don't let him win the battle. Trust in God for He is our strength in times of trouble, He knows our destiny, He is the Director behind the scenes of our life!