The Sadness Will Fade

Yesterday I felt such sadness
Wondering if I could escape this madness;
The madness of my thoughts of you
And some are ringing very true.

No one could express the pain
Of the one thing I thought to gain,
But couldn’t grasp this meaning
Of the light gently beaming;
This light I was drawn to
I believe was sent, for it was you.

What I believed wasn’t the truth,
All lies, it was, and now I’m filled with ruth.
The light has faded away to nothing,
Just a tiny spot in the distance, dully shining.

Unknown to you all of this was.
My heart was tearing if half because
You went on with life like nothing happened.
I don’t understand these feelings of being frightened
Of being brushed off as something trivial
Not worth the time of day to you at all.

The sadness of yesterday has carried itself to today
And I’m thinking it really wants to stay.
How should I get ride of its bothersomeness
Without making me into its very own mess?

Would cutting myself off completely do?
Will that be sufficient enough for you?
I believe not because you need my encouragement
This friendship that God said was to be meant.

Somehow I’ll move on from yesterday.
This immense pain wasn’t meant to stay,
It will fade away in time no matter its size;
Much like the light of joy fading from my eyes.