Destruction & Restoration of My Innocence

(read all of Ecclesiastes…)

This is my story...
The story of my destroyed innocence.
The story of my... life?
I don't want it to be my life!
All the hurt and the shame...
The sadness and the blame.
These thoughts never leave me;
Always, they come,
From dawn ‘til dusk.
They're there as I sleep
And when I wake.

What are these thoughts? you ask.
Ones of impurity and disgust,
Both of the fear and distrust
Of myself and others with myself…
Is God trying to teach me something
In all these messed up thoughts?
Why can’t things be rewound
And changed for the better?
Imagine turning back the clock
And reliving moments of wrongs,
Changing them to the right moments.

There is so much death!
“A Time to be Born and a Time to Die.” (Ecclesiastes 3:2a)
And so much crying and grieving…
“A Time to Cry and a Time to Laugh.
A Time to Grieve and a Time to Dance.” (Ecclesiastes 3:4)
“A Time to Embrace
And a Time to Turn Away.” (Ecclesiastes 3:5b)
I say, embrace your life,
Live life to the fullest of everyday.
Enjoy your life while you still can,
Make right moments not wrong…

What is it with time?
There’s “a Time to Keep
And a Time to Throw Away.
A Time to Tear and a Time to Mend…
A Time to Love and a Time to Hate.
A Time for War and a Time for Peace.” (Ecclesiastes 3:6b-7a,8)
There is also a time to sin
And then a time for repentance.
“‘Everything is Meaningless,’
Says the Teacher, ‘Completely meaningless.’” (Ecclesiastes 12:8)
“Fear God and Obey his commands…” (Ecclesiastes 12:13)

by Tiffany Kennedy