Random Thoughts

So lately I've been thinking... Life has many turns in the road. Some will lead you far far away from home, while others will bring you back. Well Rob read that package I got from BBC and he said that it sounds like a pretty good school and that I should maybe go for a couple years instead of one. The problem is money though, like Gill said, it's not cheap to live there, everything cost more than it would here. So now to solve that problem is to find a job, but where? Fields, Saan,... Hey Jess, remember how we both need a job lets go work at Fields or something together! Robin too. It would be more fun with friends around. We could all have the same shifts and stuff... That would be great!
Well, now something else I've been thinking about is Ontario. I'll finally get to see my cousins that I haven't seen for like four years. How things have changed since then... I'll get to see my new cousin Shauna, and I'll get to see Arianna again! It'll be so much fun! And we're flying there... Flyings fun, taking off is the best part about it, and landing just as fun. I miss the DR, the people, the warm of the sun and smiles, the hospitality they are willing to give you even though they have little and you have so much. The school, the Maranga, the beach, the food (except rice), and just the friendships made and the fun we all had. Personal growth was a big part of that trip, if you didn't grow while you were there you would grow so much when you get back, just to see all that poverty then to come home to a big bed, hot showers, 24/7 power and water flow, clean water to drink, and the list goes on... How could you not see how much you are blest with what you have and that its really selfish to just want something b/c someone else has it and its in fashion. Think of those people that are always watching how they spend their money to make sure they have enough for food, clothing, bills, and other necessities that are needed besides toys, electronics, pools, etc. I've been working on that aspect but I tell you its hard when you've been raised in a society that, in order to fit in at all you have to be up to their standards.
Ooo Ooo, camp is going to be here fast just two more months! Two! I'm excited, I've been waiting for camp to start since it ended! It's going to be an awesome year with all you guys and I hope that I have one of you working the same week as me or all of you at the same time, it would be awesome! And all the campers! I hope those from last year will be there when I am there, like some of the girls from my cabin. Aaahhh, I'm so pumped!
Well it's 1:00pm and I really don't have anything else to say just that remember tomorrow is our meeting at my place (sleep over) and that we will be discussing ideas about the possible missions trip in like five to ten years time.

Incredible Urge or Calling?

Okay, so this morning on the bus as I was reading that package that I had gotten from Belast Bible College, I got this weird feeling that I really wanted (like really wanted) to go their, but it also felt like I was being told to go their. I was just reading when this thought came into my head, for no given reason, saying "You should go there, grow with me there, get to know me more deeply..." It was kind of creepy, but I know that I HAVE to go there, no matter what it takes. But one thing I'm struggling with is that, was it really or was I just making it up? Is God telling me to go there or am I just wishful thinking? I'll need to pray and think hard on this because it is my future and I don't want to take the wrong path without God consent.