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So, you guys are downstairs right now having Youth Group and I'm up here because I'm mad and when I'm mad I don't really listen that well so I thought that I'd just stay here finish my English which I almost did and vent out.
We've haven't had a sleep-ova in a very long time and it would be awesome if we could get one in before everything gets really chaotic with exams and grad, because I know we will have no time after that and we've been talking for a long time about having one but no ones seems to really care about this anymore... It makes me sad because I can already feel myself slipping away and getting distant and angry at everyone because no one seems to have to the time to come hang out with me. This may just seem like an attack on you guys but its the way I feel right now! I'm stuck at home doing nothing but work while everyone else is in town hanging out. NO ONE thinks to call me and ask what I'm doing and if I'd like to hang out. For the past few months I've heard you guys talking about things that have happened while hanging out at Tom's or at Robin's, etc. etc. And here I was cutting grass, cleaning the house, doing work for mom because I had nothing else to do because my friends were off having fun without me... Wow that makes me feel so amazing about myself! You just wouldn't believe it. I've been bottling this up inside for the past month and its finally blown up to the surface. I don't know whats going on with anyone anymore, I don't know what people are doing lately, and I'm sitting around alone everyday it seems! I must hide emotions really well because nobody noticed all this. NOBODY. Friends are supposed to notice and ask questions, but right now I feel less then a friend, more like an aquaintance. Easily disposed of or play with when theres no one else around.
All this rambling may be nothing or it may be a lot of something, but its the way I feel right now and it really sucks.